Well, I am kinda getting into the swing of things at work. I'm not totally there yet but it's coming along. I still feel like I have a lot to get done everyday and wonder "are my kids, getting it". But, anyhoo...I was in a meeting today with my 2 other team teachers, the principal, the math specialist and literacy specialist. We were discussing reading stuff and I was trying to explain how I didn't understand this comprehension assessment that I had been giving. Now, you must know I am the personality that wants to know WHY am I doing this, IS this worthy of doing, and, because I like structure and rules I want to know exactly how to get it done. So, I am having this discussion about this assessment and when the discussion is over I begin feeling like I have probably not done the assessment correctly which in turn affects my student results, and then I feel so overwhelmed that tears come to my eyes. I try to shake it off but just can't. They keep coming and getting stronger to where I had to actually leave the meeting. Then I felt bad b/c I figured people probably felt bad for me (which is not what I wanted) and I hoped I didn't make that person (who I just finished talking to) feel bad. So, when the meeting was over I had to apologize to that person for losing it. Now, my boss probably is wondering what in the world is going on!! Needless to say it was not fun! Sarah-another meeting...now I really don't like meetings ;) After the meeting was over I get better clarification and felt better about the assessment. And this too shall pass....
On the upside of things, my stamina for the day is lasting longer!!!
Friday, September 26, 2008
Embarassing MELTDOWN!!
Posted by gruvyteacher at 5:43 PM
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Oh Sweet Margo!
I feel your pain, and was in the same boat with you! I just cried my little eyes out. I belive this is why great teacher quit. We are so overwhelmed with with the "other" stuff that we loose focus on why we are really there. Thankfully you have a great group of kids. Stay focused on them, and not on the distractions. Praying for you!
MARGO! I wish I could have been there so that we could have "evened-up" on the crying game. I cried in front of you already this year...you cry in front of me...we'd be even, right? I'll consider your confessional to the blog world as "evening" us up. How's that sound? I had a panic-attack at church last Sunday and actually HAD TO LEAVE CHURCH. How's that sound? We're all feelin' it right now. I gotta think of something fun to do at school to lighten the mood....hmmmmm.
this time of year is so stressful with a new class full of different students, new criteria and tests etc. it just seems so overwhelming to all us that it is no wonder you let the tears flow. i don't think you should have apologized for losing it. you are a beautiful human being. crying is a way to relieve the stress that the body is holding on to. i know you are amazing at your work! keep it up and the rest will fall into place. love you!
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